i fucked up.
big time.
seriously, i wish i could just shut up and rewind, but CLEARLY, that's not an option, now my parents hate me, i'm the closest i'll ever be to legitimately depressed, my feet are freezing, and i'm eating ramen for breakfast for the second time this week. 2010 has done nothing for me. why would i believe that a change of digits would change my life around? man, i'm a stupid fuck, that's why.
so, here. i present to you a vignette of my ultimate stupidity, and you tell me how to fix this, because i am now completely convinced that i am bad at interpersonal relationships - i should just go, get a million cats and take over as the next block-in-charge of some hostel. it doesn't get more pathetic than that. i don't get any more pathetic than this.
so, the other day when i was planning to go to chennai for pongal weekend, i asked my parents if i could stay over at my roommate's house for a night because i'd get late and i really wanted to see her house but they said no and i said please and the father said no and i was like, why do you hate me, i don't get to go to calcutta and you won't let me have friends in chennai, so they were like, fine, be withyour friends, don't come and i was all pissed so i was all, FINE I WON'T COME, I'M NOT COMING and then i hung up and started bawling (yes it's possible) and we spent an entire night in my room bitching about parents and it's two days later, my mum told me she doesn't care, we're just a business transaction till i get my degree and she wants out and my dad won't even come to the phone anymore - not that we ever had heartwrenching bonding type conversations - my parents just tried breaking up with me, the coffee shop is closed, i'm an emo kid and i need help because i do not trust my interpersonal skills anymore, send me an email with details of words to be used and things to be said, and if you can't, then do something to help anyway because i reallytruly for reals fucked up this time.
and i so totally can't fix it.
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