Collapse the Light into the Earth

I wrote this because I didn't feel like doing Math, my room mate's English teacher showed them a documentary on 2012 last night, and my morbid fear of dying is rearing it's ugly head again and it's kind of hard to go about life fearing about the lack of it. Analogous to eating the last plate of good food and wanting to eat it fast and yet knowing there's none where THAT came from. Porcupine Tree and lack of Math is sort of making me feel better. For some reason I thought writing would make me feel better but it only made me feel worse. Man I'm a loser. I haven't done anything useful. I have a huge ego and nothing to back it up with. And to top it all, I'm going to die in about two years. 2012 is good news only for psychopaths and non-believers who are going to have a field day on 01-01-2013.
If we live to see it.
:-/

Are there going to be sirens, wailing in the dead of midnight,
Like a shrill knell for the world?
Will we burn hotter than the sun, or will we just stop existing
Crumbling into ashes when we take unwitting steps
Danger
Danger
Ohmygoodness DANGER.
Is there going to be some sort of line, women and children go last
And the captain of the world locks himself in his cabin -
2012 is the Iceberg for our planet's Titanic, and Ron Howard is a morbid, morbid man
Who couldn't come up with a happy enough ending.
And will I hang over the edge of a oaken door with icicles freezing my hair -
Watching you die and we'll think of the things we never did?
We never took a trip to an amusement park in the late summer, never watched the candy-coloured rides in the haze of the setting sun.
And we never went to Amsterdam, and we never took roofies among the tulips, stupid grins and outlandish words we wouldn't remember were never said anyway.

My life would look like the preview of a movie half-formed in the mind of a visionary
Extraordinary ideas and crazy situations that never really happened
All I am is a barrel of mush that never fermented
And I am left undone, unfinished, because I never started anyway.
I could have been the best beer in the world.
So when Day Zero finally arrives, what is going to be like -
An army of aliens, tired of being misrepresented as green, antenna'd misfits take us down
Because they're tired of hiding from the Mars Rover?
Something less mundane like a fiery inferno going Kablam and we're all little strips of bacon
Or the Sun goes on strike
Or the vastly superior idea of thermal death, when we expend so much energy that the entropy of the Universe goes up so high that we just cannot move anymore.
For an idea that's been lurking around for hundreds of years, 2012 Is surprisingly vague, you know?
All the better to spook us out with.