Starting afresh on the whole Starting afresh thing.

I can't do Tumblr. Too much re-blogging, not enough real-blogging. Shifted to a new Blogger url, because I needed a new start, and I can't do without the blogging.
Credit to Sid for new blog name.

IMPORTANT UPDATE

This blog has shifted over to this place here. Tumblr is a revelation and I wonder why I hadn't made the switch earlier.

Wanting to eat the cake that one baked.

I haven't updated in forever. I feel sort of bad, but there are a lot of things happening, plus I really feel like a swtich-over, this time, without importing my older posts. Sort of a start-afresh kind of thing. Hopefully I'll be able to set it up soon. Meanwhile, things I have been reading include fabulous webcomics - Bellen! by Box Brown, AnderslovesMaria by Rene Engstrom, and Tuku's blog, with that beautiful update on food and POTC.
I'm feeling all cherubic and stuff, which I hope lasts, this time. Bitterness is easy to get sucked into.
Biggest choice to make, at the moment - Blogger, Wordpress, or Tumblr?

I see myself on the list of psychotic people you thought you loved.
I see myself as an anecdote for cocktail parties, one that gets funnier with repetition.
She Always Used To, She Never Did - I Really Wanted Her To, But She Never Knew.
I see myself in the pang of nostalgia, in the wave of thankfulness for times left behind, a phase you discarded with college.
And as you hug She Who Is Better Than Me, I see ourselves for what could have been,
What we never let ourselves be.

If in the end we're meant to be, then why do I consider the end as an inevitability?

Radical Honesty, with a pinch of Plagiarism

I'd, at this juncture, prefer to write something on my own, but seeing as this blog is public, and I don't really want to put myself out there (despite what it may seem to you), I'm going to take this opportunity to post Snow Patrol's Make This Go On Forever, because it's a really really nice song.

Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is 'it could take my whole damn life to make this right'
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you taught me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore?
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you taught me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you taught me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
Please just save me from this darkness